Now I can see my soul Ain't leting me have some clarity They keeping me under control Running the loop of insanity It's better to make a mistake Then rather feel guilt like I did a crime I know that destruction is in my fate Tell me why to defy gravity Just grind me down into the dust And fuck me up 'til make me go bust Ain't wanna to fight for survival 'Cause all I got is self-disgust Just grind me down into the dust And fuck me up 'til make me go bust Ain't wanna to fight for survival 'Cause all I got is self-disgust My instincts my foes Should I keep em close? They play with me I can't ignore My brain is overdosed Just grind me down into the dust And fuck me up 'til make me go bust Ain't wanna to fight for survival 'Cause all I got is self-disgust I'm let in no one in shell To keep that external society Gn I've locked my desires in a cell But welcome internal anxiety Just grind me down into the dust And fuck me up 'til make me go bust Ain't wanna to fight for survival 'Cause all I got is self-disgust Just grind me down into the dust And fuck me up 'til make me go bust Ain't wanna to fight for survival 'Cause all I got is self-disgust My instincts my foes Should I keep em close? They play with me I can't ignore My brain is overdosed Just grind me down into the dust And fuck me up 'til make me go bust Ain't wanna to fight for survival 'Cause all I got is self-disgust