This is a song I wrote myself during a dark time period in my life. At the time I was having night-terrors that my mother is or was dying and it honestly made me very depressed in the real world. I have a very strong connection with my mother and I was devastated when I kind of stepped back and realized that one day my mother will pass away and it will devistate me. Im no longer having these issues but I still wanted to write this song so that I could have an emotional release whenever they arose again. My mother currently is not actually dead but I still like conveying my emotions through music. I understand nobody will know this song because it's not published. It's something that I personally wrote. I'm mainly posting it in hopes of feedback on what I could do better in the future as a song writer as this is my first song I have ever composed. I just wanna say that I miss you And all the stuff that we used to do You cared for me so much Now my heart beats with a crutch I just wish that I had told you When that I could still hold you Everything that I'm grateful for Like sitting together on the beach shore I'm thankful for the life you gave me Wish that I was still your baby Remember when you used to praise me Now I visit where your grave stays I'm thankful for the life you gave me I just hope that you still praise me 'Cause every day I hope and pray Just don't let me forget your face Now and then I still break down Wonder why it happened now You were so young with love to give Can visit where you now live But now day in and day out i grieve Wondering why that I still breathe When you should be here instead of me You left me here oh so lonely I'm thankful for the life you gave me Wish that I was still your baby Remember when you used to praise me Now I visit where your grave stays I'm thankful for the life you gave me I just hope that you still praise me 'Cause every day I hope and pray Just don't let me forget your face [Solo] I'm thankful for the life you gave me Wish that I was still your baby Remember when you used to praise me Now I visit where your grave stays I'm thankful for the life you gave me Not a day goes by that I don't hate me 'Cause I didn't say "I love you" enough Now it makes my life so tough